Letter to Deb.

   Hey Baby,
  I'm not melancholy but slightly lost in my journey I suppose. I guess you have a pretty clear view of things from up there.  Even the great expanse that I see couldn't possibly compare.  All in all everything is going quite well.  But you know me and how left to my own devices how I can be,  I don't know but even when I talk to you when alone it doesn't seem to be as complete as it is when I write it down.  I wonder, One day will someone read these words even after I have been long gone understand the complex and undying relationship we have shared?  Or will they just look at it as an antiquated experiment that was a part of our generation.  I hope that maybe a lesson can be learned from it that shows even after death that love does go on and a life that was shared between two people really did matter.  Will they know how two can be a team that never fails? Or how two people can love so deeply and share in everything as much as we had. Anyways I just wanted to drop you a note. Know that I always think of you and will always keep you in my heart and mind. I love and miss you baby.

   Yours eternally

As Always.

It seems I will be going down this path alone. Well not really alone. I'll have many memories to take with me.  But I need these travels. I need to see if what I have imagined and written about do exist beyond my words and thoughts. If they do then it will be an amazing adventure. So I'll take this chance while I am still young enough to enjoy it and once completed old enough to share it. If it be the will of God and with the remembrance of Deb who shared in so many adventures in my life.

Not to say good bye. But until we all meet again!

I won't publish this and with my few followers most will never know.  I say to my Debbie that it has been and shall always be a privilege to have loved you. I kept my promise and will always hold a place in my heart just for you. But I know that you would have wanted me to move on. I have and knowing this and having prayed for guidance and directions because I certainly had no map that I have found someone. Someone that we both knew not well but enjoyed meeting her through her brother.  I guess there is a time and place for everything and everyone.  We have agreed to take the time and learn to really know each other. She nor I will rush into this. We will take the time to learn what each other wants and needs from each other and to work together.  My feelings for her are very strong. She has been hurt before and I can feel it when I simply hold her hand. So I will not rush her in anyways but some help from up there wouldn't hurt.  Deb I just wanted to tell you this. I want you to know that I keep all the things you have shown me and how you taught me to love.  I can no more predict how this new relationship will evolve much less then if the sky will be purple tomorrow. But I have the feeling that with work, honesty and compassion that all things shall work out as planned. I just wanted you to know this.  I have very strong feelings for this true Lady and I have dreamed of her before we started to really decide to explore our feelings for each other. This I needed you to know. So I bid you farewell and one day hopefully in the far future we all will meet again. It was my blessing, God Given that we had our time together and with his blessing once again that I will have a true love. God doesn't limit the time here on earth between a man and woman. God only gives us our free will to choose and be happy.

Wish me the Best.

I have looked down the road. It leads me to a new direction.

Well I probably knew it would happen.  I didn't know when and I did not have any clues. I wanted it to be with someone that I had feelings for.  She sure isn't making it easy. But I know she is also protecting herself.  I will always hold a spot in my heart for Debbie. She was my true love for so many years. Now there is a very Pretty Little Gal who is making me work for it. I do not blame her. She has had her ups and downs and was a very good friend to Debbie and myself. If Debbie could have chosen then this gal would be on top of her list. I only hesitate to name her because its not something that she is comfortable with.  I will always love Debbie in my own way. But I also know that she would want "Promise". Until Death due you part. I wish it hadn't come to that. I wish that she were here with us all. But God had made his choice to take her. And he left me with my choice. To stay alone or to take another. I choose the latter. I take one who I can prove that I can and will only love her and support her. And I will keep the "Promise" This I swear!

To that little gal!

Something that I wanted to share.

Hey sweetie. I know its been awhile.  I haven't had much to say and I wanted you to know I still think about you every day.  Everyone tells me that its ok and I'm doing fine and maybe its time to move on. I know that is what you wanted for me and maybe I should but I wanted to make sure you are fine with all of this.
     See I feel you all around me and I know you pay attention. I felt you tonight when I was outside by myself and the breeze brought you back to me for just a moment.
    Curtis pulled  a stunt the other night. It was interesting to say the least. I know you will give him grief in your way even still.  It all ended up well.  Tonight was fun but still I looked for you.
     What I am asking is I suppose permission to move on. I have been assured from everyone that would be your wish but what I want is something more direct. However it comes. A breeze. Maybe a familiar scent. Even a sound of something familiar. I will know without a doubt when it comes to me.  You are my baby and my love and true soul mate. I will always love you. You alone can tell me when it is right.